Posts Tagged ‘dog’

Brutus 2006-2018

Wednesday, November 14th, 2018

Previously: 2013 photos of Brutus with the kids 

I’ve spent several days staring at this box on my computer trying to figure out the best way to say that my dog is dead.

I don’t want to say “We lost Brutus this weekend” because we didn’t lose him, the way you think of losing a dog. He didn’t run away, he’s not missing, there’s no chance he’s coming back.

I don’t want to say “Brutus died on Sunday” because he didn’t just die. It wasn’t that easy. He got sick, really sick, really fast and I spent a week talking to vets about whether or not we could help him before we had to make the terrible choice that we couldn’t.

I don’t want to say “I had to put Brutus to sleep” because he’s not fucking sleeping. He’s dead.

I don’t want to say “I had to do the kind thing and save Brutus from his suffering” because when it came down to it, I couldn’t even do that. I sent my husband to the vet with the dog while I took the kids to a birthday party, so I didn’t have to make the decision or tell the kids right away.

And now our dog is dead.

Up until Sunday, November 4th, Brutus was basically a puppy. He was hit by a car when he was 3 or 4. I saw it happen, he went completely under the wheel of a big SUV. I carried him home, threw my infant in the car, and rushed him to the vet. They looked him over and diagnosed…a scrape on his lip. That was it. No other damage. He loved other dogs so much that walking him on a leash was next to impossible. As soon as he saw a dog he’d drag you into the road to say hi, barking and yelping and totally freaking people out. He liked to talk by making these growling-grunting noises. It made him seem scary until you realized it was basically the dog version of purring. When he had cancer last year and had to have a toe removed, he was up and jumping around long before the wound healed and had to have it restitched twice because he couldn’t be still. He was an amazing guard dog, barking loudly and alarmingly at everyone who dared to walk past the house, but calming down when friends came in and he realized they were good humans.

After I posted on Facebook that Brutus was gone and people started sending their condolences, I realized how many people had known Brutus, just like they know my kids. So many friends have pet him and rubbed his ears. So many kids have climbed on him or used him as a pillow or fed him their cheese sticks. We’ve had him since before we had kids, before we bought a house, before we were even real adults. He’s given everyone he’s ever met so much love, and I hope he knew how much he was loved in return.

You’re a good boy, Brutus. We’ll miss you forever.

Brutus at 3 months old, in our old house, on our old couch, when my face didn’t look like I’ve been crying on and off for days:

I took the kids out this week to take pictures, just in case. I’m so glad I did.

 

My Week(344) in iPhone Photos

Thursday, June 8th, 2017

Current mood: I’m not at Disney World so I don’t care about anything. This week is cold and stupid.

Sunday:

Cousins checking out the back yard

Cupcakes + lake = perfect

Sand is delicious too I guess

Monday:

This dog thinks it’s a cat

Caroline is going to be the card player in the family

Tuesday:

Baby on my back

Is it a door? Maybe it was?

We walked here. You can see Mohegan Sun casino on the right down the river. We live really close.

Wednesday:

New hair cut

New goggles

I think Evan might be a vampire?

Thursday:

Private lake morning

Family fun night

Good job Linc

Friday:

I feel the same about laundry Linc

Love youuuuuuu Cosmic Kids

Saturday:

Back at the salon

Purple hairs for Disney!

Evening playdate for the kids

Seriously, guys, it was FIFTY DEGREES yesterday. It’s June. I can’t handle this. I realize pretty soon it will be 95 and I’ll be wishing it was cooler again, but never do I want it to be 50 degrees in June. Next week when I’m in Florida and sweating my butt off I won’t even be mad.

My Week(328) in iPhone Photos

Friday, February 17th, 2017

If the goal of the current administration is to make me feel like I’m living in The Upsidedown to the point where I can’t even watch the news anymore, GOOD JOB! Here’s last week, when I was only like, 75% burnt out on everything.

Sunday:

Home Depot trip

Super Bowl party food – made NONE of this

Finn making friends

Monday:

This McD’s is determined not to close, despite the fact that it’s torn apart

Crashed

New wall color in the kids’ room

Tuesday:

Testing out the reading corner

Donut time

She already knows these

Wednesday:

Linc stole my phone and took more pictures

These shoes are on kid #3!

A tiny bear helping me pick paint colors

Thursday:

I’m doing Weight Watchers again. Salad and tuna is my life.

Eyelashes

We got a little snow

Friday:

Sledding day

Too much snow to swing lolololol

It’s a tradition

Saturday:

Breakfast outfit

Snow cream for lunch

Two thumbs up for German Chocolate Cake

Today I cleaned out both dressers in the master bedroom and threw away all my underwear that didn’t fit or wasn’t comfortable. I have like 4 pairs left, but the fact that some of it was from HIGH SCHOOL means it definitely needed to be done. I still have a lot of work in the guest room, Linc’s room and the kid room to do, but at least now I’ve done something for my own benefit. If I keep being this stressed out the house should be totally clean before school gets out.

My Week(326) in iPhone Photos

Wednesday, February 1st, 2017

Caught up! For like, 3 days anyway. I also forgot to take pictures for most of this week somehow, despite having done this for 326 WEEKS in a row.

Sunday:

You can’t tell, but this is the clean version of this closet

All of these are going to Goodwill

Monday:

You know the world is ending because I drank this and I liked it.

Linc took this without my knowledge

My little star

Tuesday:

Watching the big kids

Super pleased with his first time being wrapped on my back

Tired terror

Wednesday:

Look, I don’t have poop on my hand!

Love

Working on their BFF status

Thursday:

Before

After!

Another cute picture ruined by barf

Friday:

Somehow the only photo I took all day

Saturday:

Tiny dancer

Super Lincy to the rescue

This week feels absolutely endless and it’s only half over. I’m starting to run out of things to organize that will make me feel like I’m accomplishing stuff. I’m going to have to move on to rearranging furniture and painting walls. It’s pretty serious.

My Week(302) in iPhone Photos

Sunday, August 14th, 2016

I actually just don’t want to talk about this week. I’ll write a post later, but for now I’m pretty done.

Sunday:

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He did this for like 20 minutes

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Happy Anniversary Dinner

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Very happy cat-dog

Monday:

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Seaport camp!

monday2

I’m not sure I should trust this obstetrician. Did you even go to medical school?

monday3

So blonde

Tuesday:

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There was a LOT of sleeping this week

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The penguin exhibit has air conditioning

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I promise that is a happy smile

Wednesday:

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That face is because there are a LOT of Pokemon at the Seaport

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He’s going to miss the cat-dog

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Baby photo session editing

Thursday:

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On a boat

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Only cats sit on the back of the couch like that

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Destroying my room, but at least there’s AC up here

Friday:

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RIP minivan

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Very excited about lemonade

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Evan is now at the age where he does this in pictures. Horray.

Saturday:

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Lounging before piano lessons

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10:30 am, 85 degrees in the shade

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Car shopping with three kids is the worst

I am 38 weeks pregnant and very, very miserable. I would like to just nap and/or float for the rest of the summer, but these kids keep insisting they need “food” and “clean clothes” and other nonsense. At least all our summer activities are done so we don’t actually HAVE to be anywhere and I can just take them to the lake and feed them bagels.

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